11:11

By: April Rohde

If I would have heard anyone mention seeing this number all the time, I probably would have thought, "Oh, you are just thinking about it, so you are seeing it"  I was never into numerology or did I even follow numbers at all.  But about six months after Tom passed, I would quickly change my mind.

For some reason after my loss, I could sleep like a baby.  Was I going somewhere else at night, maybe into a astral plane?  I am not quite sure, but sleep was a welcome thing for me, a coping mechanism.  I was falling asleep around 10pm every night and waking up around 6:30am, I remember chuckling to myself a few times that I was adopting Tom's work hours.  But one night I was awakened, I sat up in
bed and looked around, when my eye caught the time of 11:11, I still didn't think too much about it, but just noted the time I woke up. The next morning I was in my son's room hanging something up in his closet and I just happened to look to the alarm clock on the right and it was flashing "11:11"  Still not quite sure what to make of this, I did note it a bit odd.  For the next few days, there was a series of getting in my car at exactly 11:11, walking by the clock and feeling the urge to look at JUST 11:11.  Finally about 5 days of this, I called my mom and told her, "It is so strange, but I keep seeing 11:11"  That afternoon she happened to be walking by a magazine stand and she sees a magazine that says, "The 11:11 Phenomenon"

Prior to seeing this for myself I had never even heard of it.  I was busy raising my kids, attending hockey games, watching my husband and kids play sports.  Tom's passing opened me up to a whole new world, a world that I was soaking up like a sponge, it was filling my mind and soul.  I would literally fall asleep with books all over my bed.  Books about NDE's, after-life communication.  I could  feel this universal plan unfolding, but just what did 11:11 mean?

One day, I said out loud , "What am I supposed to do with this number"  I heard a voice say, "just trust what you feel"  and I knew that meant to trust what I felt over what the mind dictates, what the mind limits us to, the mind likes to be in charge, but when we trust what we feel, we are following spirit.  A whole new world can open up to us, more living, more joy.

After seeing the 11:11, it went onto a series of other numbers like 555, 444, 333 and 222.  I came to determine that all these numbers were changing something within, what all was happening I am still not quite sure, but sometimes we don't need to have all the answers, we just need to allow.  We could drive ourselves crazy always trying to figure it all out, answers come in their own time.  If I had to say, I felt that 444 meant transformation, 555 meant change...333, mind, body and spirit, and 222 means balance.

Whatever the reason, my life is forever changed.  I have a greater connection to nature,, to life and the journey.  Whereas I began to wonder if "Everything happens for a reason"  after life was was throwing me some hard experiences, Tom's passing connected me back to that inner knowing, that yes, there is a reason for all things if we are willing to look within to find those reasons.